Post by reapper411@SecretBP on Aug 1, 2012 22:15:41 GMT -5
Holding nothing back here xD Just copy and pasting what i have. Do keep in mind that some of these are what i have made up but most come from my heart. So please do not insult them unless you want me hating on you like nobodies business...
- nothing but a kiss -
If nothing but a kiss
is all you have left
what do you do
I cry then sigh
scream to the world
then demand silence
my heart is broke
nobody can see though
nobody can know
all i have left is a kiss
leaving my world in chaos
but the only think you will see
is my dead silence
- My End -
Sighs of sorrow
while I avoid my friend
As I wait for tomorrow
To make it all end
As i lay on my bed
Every minute bringing fear
my heart is filled with dreakd
yet this pain i cannot bare
i want the pain to be gone
so i look down at my gun
how did everything go so wrong
And now I will no longer run
Now I lay here on my bed
So when they find me, I'll be dead
- This is Me -
This is me
though you cannot see
as my heart aches
with this pain i take
Even though they fight
I make my days alright.
The sacrafices i make
So my brothers won't break
The pain in my heart
won't cease from the start
will they ever quit
So it will finally be quiet?
And the sacrifices I have made
Will forever go unpaid
They will be unrecognized
Foever hidden by my despise
So all that I can show you
Is not the real me.
- Butterfly -
See my bright colors
See my fragile wings
See my little face
See what I see
I lift my wings
And they beat softly
As they lift me
Away from the ground
I fly away
Into the sky
I fly around
For the rest of the day
- Forever Trapped -
From her I hide
From there they see
Together we shall always be
I want to scream
I want to beg
But forever is what you said
I want out
I want away from here
Shall i ever be free
From here I hide
From there they see
Together we shall always be
- Starry Death -
Many stars above me
The lights of the sky
Making patterns
on the blanket of night
The smile at me
And I smile back
Winking at me
Telling me to come
They are reflected
in the lake of life
Soon it overomes me
And my stars cry
Now I shall join them
Those millions of lost sould
I shoot up to them
And all shall watch
- Trapped -
Im in a dark box.
It has two lights.
One here.
One is far away
Its small in here and cold!
It scares me
I don't really "see" anything.
Its a numb feeling
I don't know whats going on
It scares me.
I hear voices
I don't know what they are saying.
I don't know if its one or more.
What is going on!?
I'm out of my dark box!
But its really bright now
Maybe if i turn off the bright star??
Then it only puts me back in the dark box
I don't think it likes me
bad light.
bad
Is there no escaping it?
either im blind but not blind.
tired yet not...
happy yet sad..
this is a strange star...
strange dark.
its more like a blanket.
I wanna go hide.
I cant!
The star keeps finding me.
Beckoning me to its brightness
Only to blind me and burn my fingertips.
Oh why must my star be so cruel?
To chase away my dark little box
With its piercing rays of hate?
Why oh why must it hate?
I don't wanna be alone.
I don't wanna be with my star!
Oh save me my blanket of darkness and
Set me free of this tragedy!
Oh help me my favorite blanket.
Sheiled me from its pain and
Forever hide me
My bittersweet darkness!
- Shattering -
Before me
he stands
watching with those eyes
so big and round
They shine like tiny facets
catching the suns setting rays
making me see nothing else
but him for whom he truly is
He sits there
under the sun
as tiny beads of sweat
form on his sweet neck
These beads
a multitude of colors
Show who he really is
and how hard he works
his mane smooth as silk
and black as a raven
takes flight under my hands
as we tear up that track
his golden body shines
like a lighthouse beckoning to lost ships
to gain that dearest crown
that his heart desires.
His tail tickles the others
as he charges ahead
locomotives in his hooves
driving my beauty forward
oh how I love
my dearest companion
as we win
My dearest Shattering
- Shattering -
Is this real love?
The feelings in which I see?
Did it come from above?
To the man standing in front of me?
For I see nothing in your eyes.
As you sit there and stare.
i ignore all your lies,
With you thinking I'm unaware.
As I sit there and wait.
Watching everything you do.
As you sit there and contemplate,
Thinking of your next move.
You are unaware of the feelings you make,
As I sit here and feel my heart break.
- Freedom -
On a horses back
Thats where I belong
Forever free.
Thats what I want to be.
Can you free me?
Will you let me go?
All I want is freedom
Upon my horses bare back.
- My Confession -
How do I confess
These feelings in my heart
As you sit there and witness
As I look for somewhere to start
Your eyes shine so bright
Your voice sounds so sweet
Your arms hold me tight
I'm glad we could meet
Everything you do sends me above
Every move you make shows me you care
Every look you give is full of love
Everything is what we share
Your love is my obsession
And this is my lovely confession
~ The Mist ~
Snorting with Hate
eyes full of fear
I turn
and run
She followed me
that loner
she didn't want
me to leave
She wanted me
to stay.
So when i slowed
she stopped
and came to
my side
then we ran
feeling free
and I felt
on top of our
little world
until one
day
we came to
a meadow
grass like
emeralds
shining with early
dew
with dancing rainbows
we stayed to graze
admiring the flowers
as they danced to
the winds
music
but something was
wrong
It wasn't
right
That mist in the middle
keeping me from having
a home
but she said it
would be fine
but she knew not
of its hidden
evils
and one day
she ran
to its middle
I snorted and
called
out to her
with no answer
Only one lone whinny
makes me believe
that she won't
come back
from that barren
land
It took many moons
and many
suns
to make my
decision
I took off
at a
run
going to try
to find
my only
love
the mist was cold
and wet
as i tried to
reach her
and when i almost
gave up
and fell to my
knees
the mist cleared
and my strength
returned
And she was
waiting
just for
me
- Tired -
I'm so tired of crying
so sick and tired of it
The tears,
they sting so bad
and leave tiny
wet trails
down my face
I cry only
because I am
hurt.
Not physically but
mentally
My heart throbs
with this
pain
that I have
I just want it to
stop
I want it to
end
Why does it not
end?
Why does it
Continue?
Can't they see that
I hurt?
Can't they
see?
I suppose not
I see no
end
to these fights
I see
nothing.
~Christmas Horse ~
Dear Santa
I Know that many ask
for many things
but I ask
for only
one.
A.ll I
wish for
is a gentle
horse
One to call my
own
One that only I
can ride
One that will
love me
Will teach me
One that will
Protect me
Oh dear Santa
Please help me out
I need me a sweet
christmas horse
to stop the
tears
A sweet christmas horse
to take away the
pain
take me away from the
fighting
A sweet little
horse
to make me
smile
once more
because my mommy
and my daddy
they fight
over money
over love
over me
Dear Santa
I am sick
And I know
that I will
die
but before I go
I would love
with every bit of my
little heart
to have a sweet
christmas horse
to love me
and take care
of me.
~ Wild Beauties ~
Do not give in
my beauties
you must fight
until the very
end
You are wild
you are free
created with
heart
created with
great spirit
You protect these
lands
from those whom are called
Men
They try to
break you
they try to
hurt you
they try to
strip you of your
freedom
your rights
as a beast of beauty
So run my
wild beauties
run free
over this harsh
world
where I shall always
protect you
the best I can
For I love you
for I care of your
freedom
Your wild grace
can never be matched
by those whom are
tamed
whom gave in
whom gave up
So keep fighting
my beautiful
friends
keep running
wild
My dearest
wild Beauties
~ Fate ~
Anger only fills me
as i chomp the
bit\
Try to tell you
to let
go.
But you only pull
tighter
making me look
straight down
It hurts my
neck
It hurts my head
My mouth is
bleeding
though nobody
notices
My legs ache
as we do a
passage
You think you work
hard
but for me
its truly
torture
You pull my
hair
to make me look
pretty
Your pinch my
belly
to stay on
and Yank my mouth
when nobody see's
Only because
I try to get
free
The pain is too much
and thus i
know
that you won't
stop
So i do what i
must
as i
stop.
You squeeze with your
knees
into my aching
belly
But when i Don't
move
you bring that harsh crop
onto my
shoullder
making me
wince.
You see this
reaction
And do it once more
only across my
flank
I pin my
ears
flat as they can go
and let out a snort of
warning
Yet you still hit me
making a mark
on my beautiful black
flank
and curse me for
sweating.
Up my feet go
and down you
fall.
I stretch my head
out
as the people come running
Your not moving
nor will you ever
move again
Which made them
decide my fate
without asking me
what went
wrong
Until one you girl
cries out
Stop!
And comes to me
and opens my
mouth
My teeth are red
And this they see
as she takes off that
bit
And said that the one
not at fault
is me
She slips on the halter
and pulls off the
saddle and we walk away
as she tries to give me
treat
Here we are
a few years later
winning Nationals
in the event
I love
I love my
life
And I love my
girl
She is
gentle
she is
sweet
and I always thank her
for the lovely
treats!
* The Fear *
The Tears I Cry
Are Tears of Fear
The Fear
Of not knowing
Of not knowing if
Your father will return
if you father
still cares
The fear of
your father leaving
on day out of state
and Never coming back
Because he loves
Somebody else
The Fear of not knowing
If the next fight
Is their Last
Of not knowing
How close a divorce looms
Of not knowing
If this fight
Is the Fight of all fights
That leaves you
Broke
The Fear of not knowing
If my family will stay together
If my dad will return
If my brother will forgive us
And Grow up
The Fear
Of what you will do
When your whole world
Crashes down around you
The fear
Of not knowing
If there will be an ear around
To hear for you cry of help
That is still silent
I am still Haunted
By this fear
Of Not Knowing
~ Why ~
Why
am i still here
Why
Do I still live
Day in
and day out
i struggle
for reasons
to explain
why
i live
Nobody seems
to care
Nobody
They yell at me
Make me do
so many things
They think
of it as chores
But they don't
see it how I
do
it hurts
It makes me
cry myself to
sleep
every night.
I can sit
in church
in the dark
and feel the
tears
as they escape
I don't know
who i am
I don't know
what i am
I have no
religion
I have no faith
in anybody
not even
me
People sit there
and laugh at
how i look
I am that girl
who always looks
pregnant
but has never once
been with a
boy
I am that girl
that would look
prettier
without glasses
but i cannot
I am that girl
that people will
sit in front of
and talk about
I am that girl
That thinks about
100 ways
to kill herself
and make it look
like an accident
I am that girl
that wishes
she never
existed
I am that girl
who only hangs
onto life
because of her horse
I am that girl
that screams for
help
but nobody listens.
I am that girl
And i always wander
why?
- nothing but a kiss -
If nothing but a kiss
is all you have left
what do you do
I cry then sigh
scream to the world
then demand silence
my heart is broke
nobody can see though
nobody can know
all i have left is a kiss
leaving my world in chaos
but the only think you will see
is my dead silence
- My End -
Sighs of sorrow
while I avoid my friend
As I wait for tomorrow
To make it all end
As i lay on my bed
Every minute bringing fear
my heart is filled with dreakd
yet this pain i cannot bare
i want the pain to be gone
so i look down at my gun
how did everything go so wrong
And now I will no longer run
Now I lay here on my bed
So when they find me, I'll be dead
- This is Me -
This is me
though you cannot see
as my heart aches
with this pain i take
Even though they fight
I make my days alright.
The sacrafices i make
So my brothers won't break
The pain in my heart
won't cease from the start
will they ever quit
So it will finally be quiet?
And the sacrifices I have made
Will forever go unpaid
They will be unrecognized
Foever hidden by my despise
So all that I can show you
Is not the real me.
- Butterfly -
See my bright colors
See my fragile wings
See my little face
See what I see
I lift my wings
And they beat softly
As they lift me
Away from the ground
I fly away
Into the sky
I fly around
For the rest of the day
- Forever Trapped -
From her I hide
From there they see
Together we shall always be
I want to scream
I want to beg
But forever is what you said
I want out
I want away from here
Shall i ever be free
From here I hide
From there they see
Together we shall always be
- Starry Death -
Many stars above me
The lights of the sky
Making patterns
on the blanket of night
The smile at me
And I smile back
Winking at me
Telling me to come
They are reflected
in the lake of life
Soon it overomes me
And my stars cry
Now I shall join them
Those millions of lost sould
I shoot up to them
And all shall watch
- Trapped -
Im in a dark box.
It has two lights.
One here.
One is far away
Its small in here and cold!
It scares me
I don't really "see" anything.
Its a numb feeling
I don't know whats going on
It scares me.
I hear voices
I don't know what they are saying.
I don't know if its one or more.
What is going on!?
I'm out of my dark box!
But its really bright now
Maybe if i turn off the bright star??
Then it only puts me back in the dark box
I don't think it likes me
bad light.
bad
Is there no escaping it?
either im blind but not blind.
tired yet not...
happy yet sad..
this is a strange star...
strange dark.
its more like a blanket.
I wanna go hide.
I cant!
The star keeps finding me.
Beckoning me to its brightness
Only to blind me and burn my fingertips.
Oh why must my star be so cruel?
To chase away my dark little box
With its piercing rays of hate?
Why oh why must it hate?
I don't wanna be alone.
I don't wanna be with my star!
Oh save me my blanket of darkness and
Set me free of this tragedy!
Oh help me my favorite blanket.
Sheiled me from its pain and
Forever hide me
My bittersweet darkness!
- Shattering -
Before me
he stands
watching with those eyes
so big and round
They shine like tiny facets
catching the suns setting rays
making me see nothing else
but him for whom he truly is
He sits there
under the sun
as tiny beads of sweat
form on his sweet neck
These beads
a multitude of colors
Show who he really is
and how hard he works
his mane smooth as silk
and black as a raven
takes flight under my hands
as we tear up that track
his golden body shines
like a lighthouse beckoning to lost ships
to gain that dearest crown
that his heart desires.
His tail tickles the others
as he charges ahead
locomotives in his hooves
driving my beauty forward
oh how I love
my dearest companion
as we win
My dearest Shattering
- Shattering -
Is this real love?
The feelings in which I see?
Did it come from above?
To the man standing in front of me?
For I see nothing in your eyes.
As you sit there and stare.
i ignore all your lies,
With you thinking I'm unaware.
As I sit there and wait.
Watching everything you do.
As you sit there and contemplate,
Thinking of your next move.
You are unaware of the feelings you make,
As I sit here and feel my heart break.
- Freedom -
On a horses back
Thats where I belong
Forever free.
Thats what I want to be.
Can you free me?
Will you let me go?
All I want is freedom
Upon my horses bare back.
- My Confession -
How do I confess
These feelings in my heart
As you sit there and witness
As I look for somewhere to start
Your eyes shine so bright
Your voice sounds so sweet
Your arms hold me tight
I'm glad we could meet
Everything you do sends me above
Every move you make shows me you care
Every look you give is full of love
Everything is what we share
Your love is my obsession
And this is my lovely confession
~ The Mist ~
Snorting with Hate
eyes full of fear
I turn
and run
She followed me
that loner
she didn't want
me to leave
She wanted me
to stay.
So when i slowed
she stopped
and came to
my side
then we ran
feeling free
and I felt
on top of our
little world
until one
day
we came to
a meadow
grass like
emeralds
shining with early
dew
with dancing rainbows
we stayed to graze
admiring the flowers
as they danced to
the winds
music
but something was
wrong
It wasn't
right
That mist in the middle
keeping me from having
a home
but she said it
would be fine
but she knew not
of its hidden
evils
and one day
she ran
to its middle
I snorted and
called
out to her
with no answer
Only one lone whinny
makes me believe
that she won't
come back
from that barren
land
It took many moons
and many
suns
to make my
decision
I took off
at a
run
going to try
to find
my only
love
the mist was cold
and wet
as i tried to
reach her
and when i almost
gave up
and fell to my
knees
the mist cleared
and my strength
returned
And she was
waiting
just for
me
- Tired -
I'm so tired of crying
so sick and tired of it
The tears,
they sting so bad
and leave tiny
wet trails
down my face
I cry only
because I am
hurt.
Not physically but
mentally
My heart throbs
with this
pain
that I have
I just want it to
stop
I want it to
end
Why does it not
end?
Why does it
Continue?
Can't they see that
I hurt?
Can't they
see?
I suppose not
I see no
end
to these fights
I see
nothing.
~Christmas Horse ~
Dear Santa
I Know that many ask
for many things
but I ask
for only
one.
A.ll I
wish for
is a gentle
horse
One to call my
own
One that only I
can ride
One that will
love me
Will teach me
One that will
Protect me
Oh dear Santa
Please help me out
I need me a sweet
christmas horse
to stop the
tears
A sweet christmas horse
to take away the
pain
take me away from the
fighting
A sweet little
horse
to make me
smile
once more
because my mommy
and my daddy
they fight
over money
over love
over me
Dear Santa
I am sick
And I know
that I will
die
but before I go
I would love
with every bit of my
little heart
to have a sweet
christmas horse
to love me
and take care
of me.
~ Wild Beauties ~
Do not give in
my beauties
you must fight
until the very
end
You are wild
you are free
created with
heart
created with
great spirit
You protect these
lands
from those whom are called
Men
They try to
break you
they try to
hurt you
they try to
strip you of your
freedom
your rights
as a beast of beauty
So run my
wild beauties
run free
over this harsh
world
where I shall always
protect you
the best I can
For I love you
for I care of your
freedom
Your wild grace
can never be matched
by those whom are
tamed
whom gave in
whom gave up
So keep fighting
my beautiful
friends
keep running
wild
My dearest
wild Beauties
~ Fate ~
Anger only fills me
as i chomp the
bit\
Try to tell you
to let
go.
But you only pull
tighter
making me look
straight down
It hurts my
neck
It hurts my head
My mouth is
bleeding
though nobody
notices
My legs ache
as we do a
passage
You think you work
hard
but for me
its truly
torture
You pull my
hair
to make me look
pretty
Your pinch my
belly
to stay on
and Yank my mouth
when nobody see's
Only because
I try to get
free
The pain is too much
and thus i
know
that you won't
stop
So i do what i
must
as i
stop.
You squeeze with your
knees
into my aching
belly
But when i Don't
move
you bring that harsh crop
onto my
shoullder
making me
wince.
You see this
reaction
And do it once more
only across my
flank
I pin my
ears
flat as they can go
and let out a snort of
warning
Yet you still hit me
making a mark
on my beautiful black
flank
and curse me for
sweating.
Up my feet go
and down you
fall.
I stretch my head
out
as the people come running
Your not moving
nor will you ever
move again
Which made them
decide my fate
without asking me
what went
wrong
Until one you girl
cries out
Stop!
And comes to me
and opens my
mouth
My teeth are red
And this they see
as she takes off that
bit
And said that the one
not at fault
is me
She slips on the halter
and pulls off the
saddle and we walk away
as she tries to give me
treat
Here we are
a few years later
winning Nationals
in the event
I love
I love my
life
And I love my
girl
She is
gentle
she is
sweet
and I always thank her
for the lovely
treats!
* The Fear *
The Tears I Cry
Are Tears of Fear
The Fear
Of not knowing
Of not knowing if
Your father will return
if you father
still cares
The fear of
your father leaving
on day out of state
and Never coming back
Because he loves
Somebody else
The Fear of not knowing
If the next fight
Is their Last
Of not knowing
How close a divorce looms
Of not knowing
If this fight
Is the Fight of all fights
That leaves you
Broke
The Fear of not knowing
If my family will stay together
If my dad will return
If my brother will forgive us
And Grow up
The Fear
Of what you will do
When your whole world
Crashes down around you
The fear
Of not knowing
If there will be an ear around
To hear for you cry of help
That is still silent
I am still Haunted
By this fear
Of Not Knowing
~ Why ~
Why
am i still here
Why
Do I still live
Day in
and day out
i struggle
for reasons
to explain
why
i live
Nobody seems
to care
Nobody
They yell at me
Make me do
so many things
They think
of it as chores
But they don't
see it how I
do
it hurts
It makes me
cry myself to
sleep
every night.
I can sit
in church
in the dark
and feel the
tears
as they escape
I don't know
who i am
I don't know
what i am
I have no
religion
I have no faith
in anybody
not even
me
People sit there
and laugh at
how i look
I am that girl
who always looks
pregnant
but has never once
been with a
boy
I am that girl
that would look
prettier
without glasses
but i cannot
I am that girl
that people will
sit in front of
and talk about
I am that girl
That thinks about
100 ways
to kill herself
and make it look
like an accident
I am that girl
that wishes
she never
existed
I am that girl
who only hangs
onto life
because of her horse
I am that girl
that screams for
help
but nobody listens.
I am that girl
And i always wander
why?